It’s Not Faith Until You Believe
A Whisper in the Night
I woke up in the middle of the night hearing the words, “It’s not faith until you believe.” God’s Spirit had whispered it right into my heart. As I considered it, I realized – it’s what I’d been missing in my relationship with God and with my son. I had yet to truly believe that God would take care of him. Hebrews 11:6 tells us without faith it is impossible to please Him. Real faith is actually believing in who we put our trust in.
And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. ~Hebrews 11:6 (ESV)
A year and a half ago, on the night I was awakened, our family had been struggling. Our son was battling the pull of a substance-numbed life. As I learned about addiction being a lifetime issue and heard many stories of relapse, how was I to believe for something better when the facts were so daunting? The reality of our family’s struggles spoke louder than my belief in God to work on our behalf.
Full of fear, I felt tossed around by those choppy waves that kept me constantly kicking to stay afloat. What if my son made a poor choice? What if he had a relapse? And what if my worst fears came true? It brought me to the realization that I could not decide his future. In AA, Step One says, “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that our lives had become unmanageable.” For me, it translated, “I was powerless to help my son on my own. My life had become driven by fear.” I was stuck and felt useless and on the side-lines. I resisted letting go, but God was gently pushing me into surrender. I had many things to learn there.
Lessons in Surrender
Within my fear, I asked Jesus to teach me how to surrender, because I just couldn’t get it on my own. He was so gentle and loving; He showed me a picture. Jesus took me to the cross and we knelt there, together. That’s where I had to begin and that’s where I would need to return often. It was about trusting the Father, humbling myself to receive help, and leaving my son with Jesus.
He has no use for conceited people, but shows favor to those who are humble. Proverbs 3:34 (GNT)
To surrender our loved ones and ourselves is not easy, because pride gets in the way. It takes our surrender and humility working together to remove it. Then we can receive God’s truth.
I’m learning that I don’t see the whole picture. I’m starting to see that each one of us is an original, at different places, and that there is much to gain from one another. And I’m learning to accept and love people, right where they are.
Enabled to Believe
Father God allows us to go through pressing circumstances to draw us closer to Him. He wants to reveal His heart and the truth that we need Him and can trust Him. As a mama bear of three young-adult cubs, I continue to learn the lesson of surrender – letting go and trusting, again and again. It is an ongoing choice. And each time I resist pride and come back to the cross to acknowledge my need, I move to a deeper faith. I move to a place of seeing and hoping beyond the circumstance. Within my surrender, Jesus enables me to truly believe.
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. Philippians 1:6 (NLT)
Whatever you’re holding onto in fear, I encourage you to take it to the cross. Jesus will help you to surrender it there and teach you about trusting the Father. I’ve experienced His faithfulness and can attest that He’s working all things out for our good.
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